She used to…

1) Cook for the whole family even tho the food didn’t taste as nice as his.

2) Wake up really early in order to prepare breakfast, even tho she was on overnight work shift and sleep was obviously insufficient.

3) Help me wear socks and tie shoes laces until I was Sec 2. Hee..

4) Changed my wet clothing to dry ones at School canteen whenever it poured in the morning.

5) Always wake me up for school, no matter how rude and angry my reaction was to her. (because I want to sleep! Hee.)

6) Wait for me overnight until 6am in the morning during my rebellious dating days.

7) Bring me to toilet every single night after my leg operation. (could be up to a no of times per night! Blame it on the bad bladder. Ops..)

8) Bring me water and wake me up to take medicine in the middle of the night whenever I am sick.

9) Cook lots of tonics for me because she thought I was very skinny and under-nourished.

10) Boil hot water for me to bathe and even blow-dry my hair after bathe. (well, no water heater when I was growing up and I used to go home really late at night as a teenager.)

She gave birth to me, took care of me, but what have I done to / for her:

1) I snapped at her whenever she nags.

2) I was rude to her and slammed the door on her when she tell me off for mistakes I have done.

3) I ignored all her calls on mobile and don’t want to return them.

4) I ignored the fact that she waited whole night for me as she was worried for my safety. I rebelliously went out until LATE.

5) I didn’t really bring Salvation to her.

6) I didn’t care for her.

7) I allow her to suffer and just allow her to serve me.

8) I didn’t accompany her to the market on Weekends, knowing that she may need help.

9) I didn’t treasure / cherish her.

28th May 2002 marks the end of her life. I have miss her for 2,192 days. If I can start all over again, I will take great care of her, treasured her and bring Christ to her. If only I can..

Things……………………………. I want to do.

1) Run my own fashion boutique
2) Get a license and buy my favorite pink Beetle
3) Have courage to give birth
4) Travel to an ang-moh country
5) Go MOS / St James / Zouk
6) Shop like its FREE!
7) Slim down. Slim down!
8) Multiply my group 3 ways!

But why didn’t i?

1) – No money, no resource, only dream and passion.
2) – Too expensive bah. But I think Beetle is really stylo. Simply love it!
3) – More fun coming my way without being a mother? No lah, only excuses! The truth is… I am scared of PAIN… wah….
4) – Well, saving… I DON’T wanna go to asian country for long holiday again.
5) – For what??
6) – If only I am Paris Hilton…
7) – Hard la!
8) –I can only P.U.S.H!

tHe iNneR hIM…

Well, he can laugh loud at a joke, carry a BIG and WIDE smile whenever he is with people, has deep and manly voice when he talks, but is a man of few words and even expression at times.

But, just when I thought that this IS his character and his personality, he impresses me with the other side of him – the inner him. That night, I don’t know for what, we just talked about the future of our country. To my amazement, he started to talk, and he talk and he talk. Well, a saying goes:”Empty vessel makes most noise.”, but even though ‘talkative’, it was of substance and not an empty vessel obviously.

I used to think that only gadgets draw great interests in him. Or maybe ships and their structures as well. However it wasn’t the case. Just hear from him and his views and you will know that its something of substance, someone with personal views of his country and people.

Well, I am impressed in fact, even though towards the end, I yawned and didn’t showed much interest, I was very much impressed by him alone. I must say that even after many years being together, there will still be many more things for one to discover about their other half. At least I discover more about him when it comes to politics. Not brain-dead, but brain-active!

tO mY bEsTieS : 一个像夏天一个像秋天

(you know who you are.. :P )

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个象夏天一个象秋
天却总能把冬天变成了春天
你驮我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
我不会相信

如果不是你
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你
我不会确定朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音
我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

hOt!

You wont believe it man. Weather nowadays are getting from bad to worst! Ai yo…

I was walking to MRT this morning and by the time I get there, I was sweating like crazy leh.. Already wearing sleeveless and I have short hair somemore, but still sweating like crazy! Haha..

When I board the train, I looked ard and realized many others, like me, were taking out a piece of tissue and wiping off their sweat. Got 1 aunties lagi funny lor… she stood in front of me, after dunno how many stops, I already cooled down, she is still wiping her sweat! Cos she sweating non-stop!

Thank God that I stood under the air con and it was blowing cool air at me. *Happy!*

Now you can be at home, brushing your teeth and you already perspire liao. And I wonder how, I wonder what I shld do if ever 1 day my aircon broke down!

Ahh…. Crazy ah….

When will you ever get it?

Yes, when will you ever get it?? Why must I keep reminding you of the little things? His Word clearly states that “Be faithful in little and more will be given.” Don’t you want more? Or are you shrinking responsibility? Or could it be you don’t want more to be responsible?

U almost gave up on yourself and wanted to leave Him, I persuade, I consoled, I encouraged, I help… I really tried to help. But why?

Arent you tired of me having to push you every single time? You aren’t tired, I am tired. You have the potential but why give your chance up? You gave “valid” reasons, but why give them in the very 1st place? Don’t you want to do more for the Lord?

Apparently, you aren’t hungry AT ALL. Apparently, you don’t really care. Why make it so obvious?

You have your reasons, but to me, they will never be valid reasons.

When will you ever get it??