Our 1095 days...

My last post was a pretty negative one...enuff of such atmosphere for it can be contagious! haha..
Well, hubby and i celebrated our 1095th day together as hubby & wifey 2 days ago...

Went to a Seafood Restaurant at EC for THE occasion. They have lunch buffet everyday. Mon - Fri is less then 30bucks per person. Think its EX?? Lemme tell you what they have.

Sharks Fins (there is real and quite a size fins inside this bowl below wor..) - limited to 1 serving per person.




Next up, we have abalone (1 small one for each person, also limited to 1 serving per person.)



And of cos not forgetting cray fish, many kinds of fish (oh, their fish is 1 WHOLE fish, even tho its for only 2 pax!), scallops, soft shells, mussels, prawns & many more! i think pretty 'hua-suan' la. :)

Anw, that was on the actual day... it was good, but what really touched me was the 1094th day.

I was working (as usual) and some of you know that i just got transferred to a new dept so there are loads of work to do... As i was feeling a little stress up, he pin me and ask if i would like to have sth to brighten up my day... Of cos i said yes...

He replied, telling me to go to my hp, under video section and play a video with the num "1234" behind the file. I thought he had secretly recorded my sleeping pose or even my snoring sound! But when i open up the file and pressed played..................................................(you can see the video clip at the end of this post. :) )

As i watched the video in my workstation, i just teared and teared and teared... he got me this time round... he did a video of the both of us together since courting days! Apparently, he waited until i slept, before he started to make this video clip... he did it until 2 am... i was SO touched!

Just when i thought thats all, within 2hrs, another surprise came!

I received a call from my receptionist to go down becos there was a bouquet of flowers for me..

I went down and the delivery uncle was there with this bouquet of flowers, wrapped in purplish-pink wrapper!

I was soooooo in shock!

My flowers... i soooooo love it! :)

On our first yr of marriage, he accidentally 'threw away' his wedding band, and for almost 3 yrs, we didnt wear any... so this yr, i decided to get a pair of wedding bands for ourselves again. (he better not lose it again!) :)

To dear : I just want to say that you have earned yourself so much thruout our 7 yrs of journey together. You have earned my respect, my admiration, my love. From only 30 marks, to 70 and now, 80 marks.. Even as we crossed our 3rd yr as hubby & wifey, there will definitely be soooo much more for both of us to learned and explore abt each other, and i am ready for that! Thank you so much for making the effort and i am really VERY VERY touched! Many more yrs ahead!

It is "in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer, in good times or bad times..."

This, it will always be.

I LOVE YOU.....


The video he did for me... :)

What's happening?!

Feel emotionally draining and tired recently. And the last time i felt this way was more than 10 yrs ago, when he decides to leave me and i was almost left with nothing. Never did i expect that the person who left me drained emotionally isnt someone that is close to me. Even if i hold her close to my heart, she will not appreciate it bah.

One moment chatting away on msn, the other moment ignoring me and giving me black face. Always thought that we are in the same 'league', but now seems i am out of it... Even until now, i have absolutely NO idea why she is angry / unhappy. No idea. I just dunno why... i dunno what is happening?!

The end result of whats happening isnt what she want, NEITHER do i. She seems to be the 'victim', so am i.

Do i look like i am very easily bullied? So much so that anyone can just be angry with me?? _ _ _ _ _ _'s case was just over, and not even one week, _ _ _ _ _ _ is upset with me.... Stimes i do think that if i were to go, it will be better!

She doesnt tell me why she is angry or unhappy.... was it for THAT reason, thats why you were not happy?? If so, lets discuss! If you dont talk, hw would ppl know?? You dont wanna talk abt it? Then its VERY unfair to me! We are all victims of such circumstances and NOBODY wants it this way.... Listen, ME TOO! I nvr wanted it to be this way dear...never...

If you block me frm FB wall, thn might as well block me totally. Since the hurt is alrdy there, even if more is added, it dont make any difference.

True, like what we both agreed, its just a _ _ _ and why let _ _ _ _ win? its NOT worth it at all gal... and to think that i even cried for you...

Forget it. Anw, i am 'leaving' and you wont see me that often, maybe this 'ending' is what you want.

I always thought we were the closest, but since you dont trust me, since you dont appreciate me as a fren, then just forget it.

Well, its just a _ _ _ anyway.

现在我很幸褔

For YOU....
Abt him....

他的手掌有种粗糙的体贴
他在我需要时候出现身边
被你伤的那些 崩溃眼泪
多亏他无私的奉陪

哪天要是和你真的再见面
谁都不要再提醒那一段从前
有些事不面对 反而安心安全
你无权再动摇我的世界

现在我有了幸福 有人照顾 应该知足
你不像他 从不让我哭
可是我越想投入 越是生疏 抱的再紧
依旧止不住那流失的温度

现在我不停忙碌 不断让步 想看清楚
你不像他 把我当成全部
可是爱有时善良 有时残酷 我要如何
爱他像爱你那样义无反顾

To lead our own lives....

Randoms again....

Sometimes, i struggle to be kind to people, esp those that arent easily loved by others.
Sometimes, i struggle with the thought of 好心没好报.
Many times, when we are good and kind to people, they dont appreciate... its an unreciprocated kindess.
But if you have the love of Jesus, even if the world crucify Him, He still love them. I want to have this kind of love. BIG love.
So, i decided to be good to people, even if its not recognised, even if its unreciprocated (again).

Realised that i have aged.
Recently someone said this to me "You dont even look like 30 lor."
Well, i dont refer to physical, i mean in terms of character and thinking. Maturity doesnt come with age, but with the ability to hold responsibility.
I want to be such person.
Irresponsibility = Immature being.

Many times, it should be personal choice (decision) over time, but we like to choose time over choice.
I choose to be with a friend when he/she needs a friend.
I choose to see to Michela's need almost immediate (if possible) whenever she has a need.
I choose to stay with MK in good times and bad times, in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer....
Very often, we can make time, but we choose not to, so the reason we give "Sorry, no time."
If you are desperate, even a minute is precious!

Our leaders, our mentors..
None of us is perfect. When our leaders done sth wrong, we dont correct them, we dont shame them, but pray for them...
Honouring our leaders... always making sure that they look good, always say good things abt them... spend time with them, bless them for they have put in so much time and energy to serve God and for us.
Love them and be loyal to them.
Oh, and listen to their advice for they have walked THAT road before.

So, i 'random' again...
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Anw, i am just gonna give more to God this yr. Not just saying "i wanna give more", but literally giving MORE.

Tithes open gate of heaven, but offering determines the quality of your blessing.
"Unqual amt, equal sacrifice." I am sooooo gonna give to Him more this yr.
Last A & B i sowed $_____, God gave me a baby,
This coming A & B, I'm gonna sow $_____, (God, pls complete the remaining.)

"Pst Kong, wherever the piece of land is gonna be, we are just gonna follow you all the way."
I believe this place is from God.