Is there anyone that I can talk to? Have been feeling down recently. Many things happened and I feel that I dont have the free luxury to rest and really relax. From Michela's incident to work stress....
Even when i talk to him about it.. Becos of the many many restrictions and financial obligations caused by me many years ago, I can't go as and when i want.
BUT, i feel really stuck. Last Fri, Big Boss talked about being miserable at work. This word strucked me hard. Miserable? Yes, miserable is THE word to use. I go to work everyday, feeling miserable. At times trying to find excuses or reasons for myself that i shld just just quit... "I cant click with the boss." "I feel lousy working for her." "Oh, she is often so rude." "Different style of working." "Maybe she 'blacklist' me alrdy." ETC...................
But i cant go as and when i want... What would others say? How will Vic and Pst see me? What abt my MIL? My brother?
OR, maybe i shld just ignore how others see me and do what i want?
If i cont working, its not a prb to fulfil our financial obligations, but what shld i do?? Chances are i will not be able to get the same pay (at least) as what i am getting now... Or maybe i 'tong' for another 6 mths (to make it a yr) before i decide to stay or go? BUT, i am worried that i cant survive these 6 mths!
Cc said i am negative... Am i? Maybe i am...
But many times i really dunno what she wants. And becos of her pressing and D personality, i got intimidated and stressed up. I realised that if there is no stress on me, i tend to think better and as a result, perform.
However the situation now is different.. She is putting a lot of stress on me! Her tone, her way of working, her demands, her pace, her 'gan jiong-ness'... sigh...She made me feel really really LOUSY.
I feel really stuck.
God, we often say that we wanna shine for you in the marketplace... but i feel sooooooo lousy about myself. I finally know that my capability level is so LOW. God, pls, HELP me. Turn things ard to be in favour of me, i pray. Intervene and give me lotsa strength to go thru this meanwhile, In Jesus' name i pray.. Amen.
So, is there anyone that i can talk to?
